I never really thought of myself as a creative person growing up fr. My family saw it in me far before I could, but my lack of consistency and selective perfectionism silently convinced me to turn away from putting effort into learning any skills that would fuel my love to create. Despite this the love never died. Through journaling, home youtube videos, video games, and later on even social media, without really thinking about it I was always looking for and finding new ways to express myself.

 

     With that carrying me into my young adult-hood, I do find myself in quite a panic being 23 not having nearly the same amount of credentials/experience/skills as a lot of the people I interact and create with. I’m thankful for yall in a million different ways and its the same reasons that i panic in your company that I’m motivated when I feel most alone. I hope that comes off as heartfelt as I meant it lmfao but you get what i mean. Shout out yall. Anyways. I say that to say this, my number one priority when it comes to creating is connecting. Whether its with myself, my friends, my family, my exes, or the City of Rochester, every idea and feeling I have and will ever record is a result of the environment of Jay Armanii. 

 

     The following is a poem from my personal journal titled, “Best case scenario”. I think its a good reflection of where my mind has been at lately concerning my creative career. And I would like to share it for anyone else who may find themselves overthinking or overwhelmed by life for any reason. 

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“Best Case Scenario”

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Worst case scenario ill still get my sunday sunset smoke sesh

even if its not my weed

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Worst case scenario ill still hang out w my friends

Well make music we never go back to

And conversations we never forget

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Worst case scenario ill still be living with my family

”out of sight out of mind” does pass down genetically

and doesnt skip generations

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Worst case scenario i wont make money doing what i love

And doing what I love will be sacrificed to make money

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Worst case scenario those sacrifices dont cut it.

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Best case scenario ill invite an old friend over for the sunday sunset smoke sesh

and tell them dont worry about matching.

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Best case scenario I’m with my friends

working on music were really passionate about

and holding each other accountable to things we say we are gonna do

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Best case scenario my family is one call away

ready and willing to listen to me vent about the bigger problems 

in our ever small world

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Best case scenario i dont need money to do what I love

because I fell in love without money

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Worst case scenario ill give it my best

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Best case scenario itll be my worst.

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